YOU CAN BREAK YOUR OWN HEART?

I ASK BECAUSE I THINK I DID, AND THE TRUTH IS GIRLS I WROTE THIS YESTERDAY AND I AM POSTING IT TODAY AND IT REALLY HAS NOT BEEN A GOOD DAY. TO ALL OF YOU WHO ARE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING SIMILAR OR SOMETHING DIFFICULT IN YOUR PERSONAL OR WORK LIFE I SEND YOU ALL MY GOOD ENERGY.

well he and I met through a cousin we had in common but we had never spoken until one day he wrote me and we saw each other and we had a date (I'm not much of a date, I really don't like dates, I feel weird, I don't know, I get very nervous) well we met and you won't believe what happened, the truth is I would love to tell you but it is very heavy hahahha hopefully one day I can tell you.

well after that traumatic event the boy and I kept seeing each other but only to have sex

but that's not the case the case is that over time (well I always knew I was going to like him because he's the kind of guy I like but anyways) over time I started to like him a lot more but we never talked about it.We only saw each other for one thing and that was to have sex but I was still there because I thought it was better than nothing and it didn't really affect me that much but suddenly I started to feel like shit literally like shit after I saw him. it was clear that i liked him, i never dared to say anything to him because that possibility was never in my head. but here i ask myself, its better to speack or to die?

well the thing is that so far I have not seen myself with him nor will I see myself, because I understood that this was not going anywhere that the only thing he was doing was hurting me, I still think about him but it hurts less I know that I will never forget him because what happened to me with him (the traumatic event).it's something that believe me you don't forget, and i never had anger with him or anything like that, after all it's not his fault. believe me it hasn't been easy, besides that i'm dealing with several aspects in my life that haven't made it easy, but every day i keep trying not to care about that anymore.

To be honest it's not only that, my love life is not very good, the fact that I never had a boyfriend for example made it affect me more, I kept asking myself if maybe I wasn't enough or if I wasn't pretty or if maybe I wasn't interesting.

it is a topic that personally affects me a lot, I know that you have to be fine with being alone and in fact I am fine with that, I have always been alone I have my parents and my family but many things in my life I have done alone, and I feel good about it I like being alone is something I enjoy but that does not mean that from time to time I can feel bad and feel that emptiness in my stomach.

going back to the boy, there were many times that I thought that maybe he liked me but he was embarrassed or didn't know how to say it as it happened to me but thinking about it only hurts more and I feel that for men it is easier to say it, I don't know. what I do is to repeat to myself that he does not like me and that he is not the least bit interested in me. it hurts? yes, a lot but the pain passes and the calm arrives

dear friend if you are going through this you are not alone and you are not crazy (that's how I felt like crazy) for feeling what you feel we are human beings and that makes us more human calm that everything will pass really time heals everything let yourself feel it is not wrong to think about him or her is part of the process think about it and then let it go

a little advice that helped me:

go out to the street distract your mind go out with your friends with your family go out alone no matter what try new things enjoy your life people are fleeting and so is life don't let go your life for one person

remember that if you want to talk or tell me your story I would love to hear it you can write me by email thatgirlbuy@gmail.com